Life is not easy, we all learn this at one point in our lives, a lot of us know this now, but that's just the thing, although terrible things happen or may happen, we can't let it get to us, even when all may seem lost and darkness washes over us like a wave of some strange despair,
do not fall into the shadows, or succumb to ultimate darkness, for whether it is clear or not, there is light even in the darkest of places, sometimes, we just have to open our eyes and see it. We are not doomed to a fate of chance, everything and all things, good and bad, happen for a reason, it's up to us to determine whether or not to allow this to make us stronger or let it tear us apart.
For sad, it remains true, we live in a fallen and broken world, however, it is our own choice to see the beauty in any situation or to fall into the fire and let the bitterness of life burn us away.
You really have courage to not give up, it's really hard with dealing with depression, especially without anyone to help you. So you have my respect and I wish you the best so that you'll never give up.
i didnt had friend when i became 14 years old i found 1 then she says i ruined her life idk how i even buyed her laptop xdddddd for free and volia i was withouth friends again and i stoped caring now i feel just great withouth friends xddd. ye almost all parents says that theyre child failure but thats because they arent any better then us
I was looking through some deviations when I saw this. I can honestly say this does bring back some memories. I wasn't sure if my friends even liked me, I lost my best friend for no reason, school was another place I couldn't be myself (lesbian, fear of being judged and harassed) and my parents always seemed to not like me too much even though I did well in school. Relationship troubles were also a contributing factor and finding out one day that I had been renamed to something depressing on one of my "friends" skype accounts through a printscreen they took of their desktop and uploaded to facebook one day (dumb mistake on their part). I had to agree I was depressed and mentioned it a while later when I had got better but the thought remains that some friends were completely heartless and it's not worth caring about them.
That said to this day I'm very happy albeit the last few days due to parent being pushy over me "needing" to get another job. I will say to anyone with depression or just being sad some days that it does get better. It's not an eternal struggle but it's definitely not something someone can just tell you "It get's better" as I found that to be rather... patronising when I was depressed. However some days you don't realise that the day you live in might be a good day and you're worried about the past or future. Infact I didn't realise I wasn't depressed anymore until I was well past it, I spent so long being depressed that just thinking of it made me depressed so I think part of recovery comes from trying to ignore it now and then (which is hellishly harder than I make it out to be but is possible when you surround yourself with goodness long enough)
I can't really say my troubles have been solved for that matter though. I still worry about fake friends, I miss school as the last few years I was myself (openly lesbian yet not elsewhere) and now work is a drag. But I have myself an amazing beautiful woman in my life. Anything and everything that happens I can share with her. For me being with her made all my issues disappear, no matter how big or small something is if it makes you happy make that thing your life even just for the time being for the issues to blow over if that's more suitable. Devote your heart, soul and mind to it as the larger you make that thing a part of your life the more insignificant your issues seem compared to what makes you happy, not all issues can be solved this way but it's a good step for some. For me my wife is my life and I'm going to make sure neither me or her fall back into spiralling depression.
I hope yourself and others get better, nobody deserves to be depressed P.S. Sorry for the wall of text D:
aaaa i know that feeling... parents often think they are the only ones feeling overwhelmed and frustrated and they dont realize they are just making your wounds deeper with what they do or so. im pretty sure they dont mean it tho-- all they want is your well being but most of the times they dont know how to express themselves and dont even realize how much they are hurting you. so remember to stay strong, bad times dont last forever!!♥
i'm taking medication for depression, haven't gone to school for a year but i'm planning to go back this school year, i can't let the same thing happen to me again, i have to keep moving forward. let's be strong together, alright?
thank you so much♥ and im really glad you do! i know a lot of people around the world are having tough times and feel nobody is there to support them. i know how that feels so i really wanted to do something-- its not much but i hope someone felt at least a little less lonely after seeing this♥
Wow..aside from the parents thing I've said the exact same thing before back when I went to school.. it was me calling me a failure. Still do when it gets particularly bad. But...I'd tough it out just to spit it back in life's face yeah? Never let a damn thing KEEP you down. No matter how many times it tries.
That last one about parents is false for me, but I can relate to everything else. ;( I am so sorry for those who are going through this like I am, I wish none of us got bullied and we all looked at each other equally and we could be friends forever. Although I love the gif of the anime looking cartoon girl! She is very cute here and I know, I lost 6 BFFS who were all fake to me and wanted to be with the popular kids.
thank you so much!! ♥ aaa, thats really bad... i lost friends too but i like to think that they werent my true friends to begin with. i mean, real friends are supposed to stay with you no matter what, right? so if friends leave you then dont consider it a loss-- consider it a learning experience that will help you choose your friends better in the future. besides, they werent worth your time or your love if they hurt you so dont feel bad about them!! ♥